Writing has long been very cathartic for me. A
long week has come to a close. I have fed the dogs and fed myself.
Here I sit in the quiet of the house. Alone.
I have never shied away from being
alone. Truth is I am a closet introvert. These days I hold a senior
leadership position in a large corporation that equally compels me
into times of solitude to recharge as did my many years homeschooling
my three adult children. As I told a dear girlfriend tonight, “I
am peopled-out, but would welcome quality time with you.” She
responded, “I understand that.” How I pray everyone is blessed
with such a deep relationship. They minster to the soul in a way
shallow relationships never will.
This month I turned fifty. Fifty years
on this planet. Fifty years of memories. Oh, the memories. Even the
once-tormenting memories bring a grateful smile now to my
countenance.
Why? Because I lived through them, and greater still,
because they compelled me out of the boat and ON to the deep waters
with my Savior. I did not sink!
Experiencing walking ON the angry, death-seeking waves of life with my Savior has brought the following truth
home to me in ways saying or reading them would never have achieved!
The higher the waves, the higher the
walk;
the higher the walk, the higher the dependency ON Him;
the higher the dependency on Him,
the higher the victory IN Him!
Today, I look for opportunities to
infect others with boldness to believe in Him; His ability to cause
those who believe in Him to rise above the dark, the deep, the
menacing ugly waves of life; for I ask you, what good are life's
lessons if kept in secret and taken to the grave?
Life is a long series of choices we are
GIFTED to make. We are not at the mercy of life's events (waves).
We, being created in the image of God, are granted the amazing
ability to choose how we process and subsequently respond to life's events, both those we
plan for and those that come at us full-force. The gift of choice
has to be among the greatest gifts granted to us by our Creator.
While it is true I have gleaned valuable wisdom from the full-force, unwelcome waves of life, the greater truth is I am not
bitter.
I sit now, and I allow myself to
meditate on that sentence I just typed. I see God smile. I smile
back.
“I'm really not bitter, am I, God?”
“No, My beloved, you are not.”
Wow. Ten, even five, years ago I would
not have thought myself capable of typing such a sentence with truth, but God.
“For You have been my hope, Sovereign
Lord,
my confidence since my youth.”
Psm 71:5
Forever grateful.....
forever.
Determine to make life choices that
OPPOSE hate and bitterness, that keep both your hands and your heart open.
Remember:
The higher the waves, the higher the walk;
the higher the
walk, the higher the dependency ON Him;
the higher the
dependency on Him,
the higher the victory in Him!
To God alone be all the glory!
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